murder is the only art a swordsman may practice

Well, it’s been a while since my last update and I feel like writing so I think I’ll try to get one out of the way while I have some free time. I guess I’ll start on the real life portion of things so that it is out of the way. I’m starting to come to terms with the fact that I have a big ego and I get off on recognition because I’ve tanked two of my previous relationships because I didn’t feel like I was getting enough of it. One lasted for six years and the other one was approaching the ninth month. Although I don’t think that it is a bad thing, I do think that I need to learn how to compromise appropriately even when I feel like I’m not getting what I deserve. I’ll be the first to admit that I am very spoiled by my family members and friends so whenever I don’t feel like I’m getting what I need at the time, I’ll toss it in the trash and walk away from it. I’m finally starting to get my life together so having a positive outlook on things could be the key to success here. I would say the usual in “I’m going to be single for a while and work on myself before jumping into another relationship” but that obviously isn’t going to happen. I like the attention that girls give me so whatever ends up happening happens. I’m not going to make a random girl my significant other or anything like that but if the feeling is mutual, we’ll see what happens. I always talk about putting up walls or whatever and I do have a tendency of blocking people out but I see no real need to do it this time around. Hopefully around this time in 2014, you won’t be hearing about a break up! I really have to break this nasty curse..

Let’s move on to talk about the Internet and Twitter. Probably my two biggest weaknesses outside of video games and ribs.. It’s a damn shame that I’ve been involved in so much drama over the past few months online. Thankfully the person that ‘hates’ me the most has been removed from the situation and I don’t have to worry about them doing something stupid over someone that I’m not even involved with. Not to sound like a cocky little shit but if I wanted your girlfriend, I could have her but I have no interest in that girl. She’s like a little sister to me and I know for a fact that I don’t have any feelings for her. I keep telling myself that I’m going to take a break from the site but I have so many good friends there that it would be a shame to punish them for something that I brought on myself. I’m friendly and I do flirt but it’s obvious that I’m only being friendly with her. Look at how I treat my legion of little sisters. It’s the same way so you need to get your panties out of your ass and start acting like a man before I really say something to hurt your feelings, boy. Senseless banter aside, everything is getting better online but I do feel like it is holding me back from bigger and better things. But how do you give up something that you’ve been using like a religious for almost fourteen years? I’ll figure it out. I think I can ‘grow up’ while keeping my addiction. I just have to find a good medium for it.

Roleplay wise, everything has been kind of slow on the Bael and Alice front. After a big argument with a friend on Monday, it’s understandable. I’m not the most approachable person whenever I’m angry so I think that they are afraid to talk to me but I’ll bite the bullet and attempt to fix it because I honestly do miss roleplaying. I’m not great when it comes to apologizing and taking ownership of doing wrong but I feel like writing a massacre for the past 24 hours and this friend is the only person who likes to roleplay the type of stuff that I like so we’ll see.. I really do need to level up on the apology front because it is a damn shame for a 24 year old man to hate apologizing.

Shows, shows, shows! I think I’m done with doing co-op on shows because while it is fun, it is more trouble than it’s worth. I’ll admit, it would’ve been nice to have someone to share the movie that I watched last night with but oh well. I did alright on my own and there is no reason for me to go on for eight paragraphs on why I would be a good person to watch shows with when I clearly stated that I’m done with it! Here is what I’m currently watching:

Blood Lad: This show is only running for 10 episodes and I really think that sucks because it deserves more. Sure, it does follow the usual Shounen anime flowchart but maybe that is what I need right now. It seems like a pretty big hit on my Twitter timeline and I have a name from the show so that makes it even better. If you have some free time, I'd definitely recommend watching it but don't go into the series expecting something on par with the quality that Titan and Gargantia gave us last season.

Danganronpa: Obviously this show is the big hit with most of my friends on Twitter since they are fans of the game. After watching the first episode, I've decided that I'll see it through to the end. Like everything else, I had to spoil it because all of the content is out so this should be a fun ride. Overall, the fandom seems kind of crazy so I'll probably end up being a quiet fan of it.

Dexter: The eighth and final season. I'll admit, it is bittersweet knowing that this is going to be the end for my favorite serial killer. There have been many ups and downs with this show but I feel like they are going in the right direction. Now we just need for Dexter and Debra to survive this damn thing but I'm pretty sure that we'll lose one or the other and not both because that would be terriblely awesome for it to end with such heartache.

Highschool DxD New: If you enjoyed the first season, you'll end up liking this one. I'm a fan of perverted anime and manga so it is right up my alley. I mean, the show starts out with a face full of tits and an implied blowjob later on so why not? The art style has changed a bit from the original but I don't think that it is enough to turn me off from enjoying senseless panty shots and large breasts.

Luther: Series 3 is finally here and it tops everything going on right now. I seriously drop everything to watch the episode whenever it gets released on the internet. It's such a shame that it is going to be over in two weeks but it's a lot better than waiting for BBC America to show the episodes in the States around September or so. If you enjoy crime drama/thrillers, you should do yourself a favor, watch it and fall in love with it like I did many years ago.

Ray Donovan: I'm going to assume that this is going to be the Sunday night replacement for Dexter once the finale airs and I'm okay with that. It follows the life of an enforcer, shows a decent amount of sex, tits and a good amount of violence so what is there not to like?

On the topic of entertainment, I got the chance to watch the Rurouni Kenshin movie from 2012 and I've got to say that they did a good job. They managed to squeeze in Kiyosato and Tomoe so that was a huge bonus. I hate to admit it but I'm thinking about resuming my horrible attempt at finishing the anime after watching the movie. I hate everything about the Rurouni Kenshin anime but I might end up liking it this time around. 26 to 95... That's a lot of episodes but with such a small anime/live action load, I should be able to do it this time if I really want to.

On the gaming front, I managed to beat The Last of Us on Survivor and Survivor+! I'll have platinum 31 if I stop being a lazy fuck and start playing the multiplayer. I'm always behind the learning curve because I like to complete the main story mode for all of the trophies before jumping online. Since it is fairly popular, I'm sure it won't be too hard but I really should get on with it because more often than not, when I move on to the next title, I rarely look back..

I'll end this by saying that I don't know where I'll end up in life. Hopefully successful, married with a kid or two within the next seven years or so if I'm lucky but I'm thankful that I feel inspired enough to finally do something about it. It's a stretch but it's better when you have a clear cut goal in mind, right?

Well, it has been an interesting week to say the least. I said I was going to make an entry talking about it so I guess I’ll do that now while I’m awake. Last year around this time, everything started to change for me. Some of it was good and some of it was bad. It’s sad because June-August is usually a good time for me but I can tell that it is going to be strange for a while without going into the details, of course. Either way, around Monday or so, I started feeling strange. I didn’t want to do anything with anyone and I wanted to push my friends away and be a loner for a little while. Not fair considering the fact that I have a pretty cool group of friends now that I like to stay in contact with. But what is the point of being around if you are going to spew a bunch of negativity out of your mouth? I don’t want to be a pussy and ruin the fun that they are having over being a whiny little brat. With everything going on this month, I can’t really afford to be an introvert because this is usually the time that I like to be social and hang out with others. I mean, with E3 around the corner along with a huge game release, I have to get my shit together. It’s my conflict and I will deal with it while trying to ensure that everyone is alright. Deactivating my Twitter did help for a little bit but it seemed to freak people out (hell, it freaked me out so it makes sense) so I can’t do something like that again. 

Now that my whining is over, I can get into some regular post content. E3 is around the corner and I’m excited for it. Of course, the console war is back on so my Twitter timeline will be filled with salty fans and shitty jokes but that is usually how it goes. I enjoy the social aspect of E3 and being able to share that with others so I’ll definitely stick around to participate in it. I’m hopeful that someone announces a new fighting game because I need a new fighting game in my life. Tekken 7 would be a dream come true but I don’t think Namco wants to focus on that just yet so we’ll see.

Anime wise, I’m caught up on Devil Survivor 2, Aku no Hana, Shingeki no Kyojin, Suisei no Gargantia, Hataraku Maou-sama and Kakumeiki Valvrave. Outside of that group, I’m thinking about tanking everything else. Don’t get me wrong, I love my other shows but I don’t really feel like watching them. Instead of tanking em, I think I’ll just put them in the on-hold category until I feel like going back to them. A few friends on Twitter are asking to run co-op on shows for the rest of the season but I’m not too sure. With all of us on different schedules, it seems like more of a headache. Still, I appreciate the offer. I mean, it is Valvrave/Maou Thursday so that is something to be happy about! 

With all of the E3 madness going on next week, I really want to just skip to Friday so that I can own The Last of Us. That game is going to dominate my life and I have no problems owning up to that. I love Naughty Dog and the Uncharted series so you add zombies to the mix and it is definitely a Kendrick Ellison game. Hell, even Corey wants to play it so that is an added bonus. I’ve got a few Twitter buddies picking up the game so we’ll probably get some multiplayer action going. If there is anything that can cure my summertime sadness, it’ll be a new video game.

On the roleplay side of things, I finally got some Mikasa/Eren action going and I’m happy with it. It would have never happened if I didn’t read the manga so it was nice to finally put some effort into some shit and have it work out! With the talk that happened yesterday, it looks like there will be a Kougami/Tsunemori revival, too! As for Bael, today is the birthday of probably my favorite OC of all time. Not sure what I’m going to do with him today but happy birthday, old boy! 

Well, I think that covers everything. I’m going through an inner conflict that I’m working through so if I just disappear off of the internet for a day or two, it has nothing to do with my homies and I’ll be back soon enough. When the 14^th finally rolls around, unless it is The Last of Us or Attack on Titan, wait until I finish the main campaign to get a legitimate response out of me.